I Cannot help it

I can't help it

after all

i love him.

he is imperfect

untameable

and

not just a whim.

I've fought hard not to love him

or let him get under my skin.

i've fought to let the love come back in

i've fought the hate

that makes

me feel this way about him-

as life is only

what we think it is .

he is not to blame

for who i am

how i do things

or what i feel

he is just giving a taste

of what lies within

what is below

the realm

of feelings

he just opened a door

i did not

have to walk in